Help ... Does it even exits???

Before becoming a mother my life was quite different and never had to think about having someone's responsibility or how to get through one day at time. Life was about planning weeks and months in advance. But now its the other way around, not only I have two little eyes looking upon me for everything also I am only worried about one day at a time that is today.

When i think about help than things like cleaning, washing, getting a job comes to my mind, life is changed now and so has its meaning. I am an Offspring lover (for those who don't know its a television soap i love to watch), when i see Neena struggling alone with stuff being a single mother but still doing a great job as being a Mum. Other than this all being a scripted series i still love watching it. Certain things i can relate to my life but others are too good to be true. Life give you several ups and downs and all you need to do is take it as it comes. Sometimes i feel like do we even have a choice? and the truth is NO. We dont have a choice, as we cant go and chance the present or future.

I have been raising my little one by myself since she was 2 months old. My family has been there emotionally but other than that no one ever helped and the harsh truth is no one even offered. I cant totally blame them as I was very much into being an Independent single mum, but that doesn't mean i wouldn't have loved some help. Same goes with the friends, they were there and still are but mostly are even scared to offer some help.

If i move to job hunting its another heartbroken game for me. From last one month i have received not even one single call but have received many emails about my application being unsuccessful. I even asked my friends who are at good positions in good companies, but i wasn't surprised when they couldn't help, as that is how my life has been so far. But never say never, i still have hope and will figure out something and eventually will have a job that i deserve.


Here is a thumbs up to all the wonderful single mums looking for work. Keep on trying, good things will come your way eventually. The road is hard and very disheartening but we have to keep on walking on it because of our little ones. Good luck :)

Day 4 as a Blogger Mum

Today was a good day. I did my brochure distribution and arranged next week's work. Working from home has it own advantages and disadvantages. The best thing is specially when you are a mum, you can choose the hours you want to work for and the amount of work pressure you can sustain. You are your own boss, specially when working as a self business owner, where you have flexibility and desire to earn as much as you like. Also to know that there is a possibility that we can work and take care of kids at the same time. But on the other hand the disadvantage is that we can't fully focus on working hours, specially in my case where I am lazy bones, when I work I work good and when I don't want to do anything then i am totally a couch potato. So this could be another reason of my excess weight. I must mention that I was on a good diet till today afternoon, No excuse why this happened, oh yes I do have an excuse it was Woolworths, I had a yummy chocolate cake.

But I must say after eating that delicious piece of chocolate cake I felt amazing. It was like it was needed badly. Either a big craving or I can think of it as my cheat day or blame on it on another cold day. Apart from this cheat my whole day was good. Sorted my work related things and completed some appointments and made a few calls, so I think of today as a productive day work wise. I also did some research about jobs today. I am loosing my faith on Seek.com even though in past its been helpful, but lately it just seems like all the jobs advertised on it seem to be only fit for a person who is fully educated but unemployed and the same time with exceptional experience. How can a person with so much skills and education be sitting home and applying for jobs? And if no one will give a job to someone in need then how can someone ever get experience?

Enough with my job related grudge. I guess all mums struggling to get back to work go through this experience. On the street where I live a house owner is demolishing the house to build a new one. While distributing my brochures I couldn't stop noticing how the old house is gone forever and the new construction has started. It made me wonder how one day we all will be gone as well and only a new house (means our kids) will take over and proceed with life. Before becoming a mum all I could think of was about having a car, a fully furnished apartment, trips, etc etc. but after i became a mum all those things became meaningless. I just want best for my little one, it does include few of the things from that list, like a better car and possibly my own house, but the main thing that matters is to give my little one my attention, my time and my love and care. As when they grow what matters is how we have raised our child, not what all we gave them. They won't remember the presents and amount of dollars we spent on them but how much we supported, cared and loved them.

To all the dear mums, be proud of what you all do everyday. You all are doing a great job, putting your little ones needs before your needs and doing your best to give them the love and care that is required, and that is not an easy job. And trust me if a person gives you advise about raising your child, specially a person who is not parent, then listen to their advise but do what you think is best for your child. As you have known your child from childhood and know what's into your child's best interest. Every child is different and special. Love them and care for them. When they will be adults than it wont matter what all they messed up in toddler or kinder age. And trust me you wont even remember it by than. By what i have known from my parents i was the most mischievous kid, and wouldn't sit still. But i turned out to be a normal human being, lol. I am an adult and sit nicely when i am suppose to be and don't jump on couches anymore, thanks to my parents for letting me enjoy the childhood. As we all know childhood don't last forever. One day our little ones will be big and than we will miss these all childhood cute moments. So, have a big cuddle with your little one, tell them how much you love them and last but not least, be easy on yourself. You all doing a great job.

So,
Today's job search result:- Job search continued.
Highlight of the day:- Yummy Chocolate Cake.
Feeling :- Mischievous.
Expecting:- To do something new everyday.
Hope:- To enjoy my little one's childhood.

Thank you for reading it.